Ever-Increasing Circles

There's a reason i titled this blog what it is. It seems like i just end up in the same place in life...just with longer trips to that point. That point being depression. I'm trying to shut off how i feel but its just not working this time. I feel incredibly lonely. My normal routine of hooking up with someone for a couple weeks isn't gonna work anymore. It just leaves me feeling even more empty than before. I've realized i lost the ability to hold a real relationship in my early 20's. I feel alone yet i can't bring myself to rely, trust, count on, love anybody. I don't know what to do.