Thanksgiving.

Little bit late but let's see what I'm thankful for...

1. The fact that i have a job, that's getting harder and harder to have these days.
2. I have enough money to fulfill my need to eat and buy geeky stuff.
3. Five Finger Death Punch
4. My ability to dodge bullets daily.
5. My family, especially my mother, if it wasn't for her i would've been dead or in jail years ago.
6. Being single, most people would see that as a negative but in my eyes it's not.
7. My friends, the real friends who stand behind me even when shit gets hard. not those plastic friends who tuck tail and run when i begin to become real. (I'm looking DIRECTLY at you!)
8. Being able to look at things in a more positive light lately.
9. Feeling like i can't move because i ate so much stuff for thanksgiving.
10. And last but not least, I'm thankful to the fact that i put this mask up for another year.

Today's song of the day is Five Finger Death Punch - The Bleeding

I remember when all the games began
Remember every little lie and every last goodbye
Promises you broke, words you choked on
and I never walked away,
it's still a mystery to me

Well I'm so empty
I'm better off without you and you're better off without me
Well you're so unclean
I'm better off without you and you're better off without me

The lying, the bleeding, the screaming
Was tearing me apart
The hatred (deceiving), the beatings; it's over

Paint the mirrors black to forget you
I still picture your face and the way you used to taste
Roses in a glass, dead and wilted
To you this all was nothing
Everything to you is nothing

Well you're so filthy
I'm better off without you and you're better off without me
Well I'm so ugly
You're better off without me and I'm better off alone

The lying, the bleeding, the screaming
Was tearing me apart
The hatred, the beatings (disaster); it's over

As wicked as you are, you're beautiful to me
You're the darkest burning star, you're my perfect disease

The lying, the bleeding, the screaming
Was tearing me apart
The hatred, the beatings; it's over
Disaster
The lying, the bleeding, the screaming
Was tearing me apart
The hatred, the beatings; it's over
Disaster

It's over now...

Truth is a Lie.

So i found out the boss of my boss...the store manager...was fired yesterday. At first this came as a shock until i found out why. A 52 year old man getting head from a 22 year old girl that works days. I'm not sure who to be more upset with, granted i knew neither of them on a personal level. I'm pissed at him for abusing his position of power in a sexual manner, and im pissed at her for using her body to keep/upgrade her job. As such, karma caught both of them and they're both on the unemployment line, and Mr. 100,000/year is more than likely gonna be divorced as well. Sure they both got what they deserved, but even from an outside perspective it's changed me. I've always had trust issues. And I've also always had a hatred for humanity as a whole. It seems all this did was strengthen that detachment and hatred. Personally if i was put in a position with say...a female boss that tried to do that to me, i couldn't go through with it. I'm too proud of a person to defile myself like that...forever. Apparently not everyone shares the same self-esteem as i do...what little i do have. One day i hope to have the chance to thank them both, for fueling my fire, and helping just a little bit on me never being able to trust, and therefore being alone forever. But NO ONE will ever take away my pride.