Last post of 2007.

This year blew by, didn't it? Probably not gonna be a long post but oh well. At this time on December 28th 2006 i was in a world of confusion and self pity, encapsulating every negative emotion into one giant ball of pain. I was in a world of pain, both physically and mentally. The mental pain was caused by a singular source. I'm sure you're reading this and all i can say to you is i can't say whether i can blame you or not for what you did to me, because frankly i STILL don't understand why you hurt me so deliberately. As of now my love for you is dead. It took a ton of work on my part but i'm finally over you. I just hope you realize one day that there is more than just YOU in this world, other people have feelings just like you. I'm not mad or sad at you anymore, i just pity you. I pity the path you've chosen for yourself. But ya know what? I can't put out every fire in the world...the damnation you're on a crash course with is yours to bear. Anyway...

It is now December 28th 2007, and i don't have that mental pain anymore, thank god. The physical pain is still there but not as bad. I've also realized that i don't have to be alone if i don't want to. I've begun the steps to find who i'm destined to be with. I'm gonna be 27 this year...its about time i found something stable and put some legs on my life. Unlike the past 7 years i will be looking forward to 2008. On a last note for the year, don't disregard your dreams as nonsense, dreams started me back on the right path, and they can do the same for you.

The Pursuit.

You lived a time of lies until you told me everything
I hope we make amends, but you don't
Life taught you how to fly and then you flew away from me
You left me haunted, star the ending image of the one

Cos they're still in you too low
All the voices you don't know
And they're still in you too low
All the choices that you chose

You harbored all the wasted sighs to define the quiet drone
I'll let you start again, but you won't
I saw you pray for change and then you walked all over me
You wanted what you could not have and now you are alone

Cos they're still in you too low
All the voices you don't know
And they're still in you too low
All the choices that you chose
Make the voices tell me who you are, and who I am to be

Are you alone wherever you are tonight?
I'm alone when you're right here
But I'm still in you somehow
I never left at all
Now I'm still in you too low
So my voice is all you know

Cos they're still in you too low
All the voices you don't know
And they're still in you too low
All the choices that you chose
Leave you nothing left to hold
When you're nothing it's a good time to remind you of one thing
The pursuit begins when this portrayal of life, ends