So its been weeks since i've done any illegal substances...which is pretty cool. Although i've been drinking far more than usual...seems like every couple days i get shit-faced now. Not quite sure whats bothering me to the point of wanting to get fucked up all the time. I guess alot of things are, for instance the situation at work. Stupid bullshit is happening and i have a feeling a few of my friends are gonna be looking for a job soon...and there ain't much i can do about it. Oh and it's my birthday on friday and i think i'm having a mid-life crisis...at 26! Alot of people are saying i need to grow up and be more responsible. Some of them seem to be joking around but there is truth in any joke. My mom says i need to stop messing around with girls and actually find one to stick with. I know what they're saying, but do i really need to grow up? I retain enough sense of responsibility while still having fun and acting young...why do i need to change that? It seems like i would be doing that to appease other people and anyone that knows me knows i dont do a damn thing to please anyone else. I am who i am, like me/love me/hate me if you want. But sometimes i wonder whats gonna happen if i don't grow up fully. Am i gonna be one of those 30-somethin guys that has a 22 year old insecure girlfriend with no future? Well its time for Mr. McUgly Pants to wait for the hands of time to age him even more. (btw fuck you for coining that nickname)
Today's song of the day is In Flames - Dead End...god i can't get enough of male/female vocal duets
Save all your prayers
I think we lost today
There's no morning after
And no one's around to blame
I'm not afraid to bleed
But I won't do it for you
We'll start among hypocrites
The melody of our time
[Chorus:]
So say goodbye to the world
We are the dead can't walk the earth
Scream your lungs out
Wait for laughter
You don't have to wait forever
It's the next disaster!
What decides when you've lost the war
When the first man falls?
Or when they erase it all?
We're too numb to feel
The downfall starts here
Hold your breath and swim
Swallowed my life's tear
In times of make believe
No one really seems to care
Maybe I should care less
'Cause I will die too
[Chorus]
What will it take for us to realize
The more we provoke
Winter will come twice
Save all your prayers
I think we lost today
There's no morning after
And no one's around to blame
Scream you lungs out
Wait for laughter
You don't have to wait forever
Here's the next disaster! [2x]
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