Reflection.

Surprisingly my depression seems to still be taking a backseat. I've felt pretty good the past month. I'm hoping i actually may be beating this thing...but i'm always prepared for it to come back with a vengence. I'm beginning to trust again. Probably the most incredible thing to happen this past few weeks is starting to talk to Heather. It's so awesome to have a girl to talk to where there is no tension or need to impress. I think that's just what i needed...someone sweet i can talk to that i have no interest in 'going too far' with. It's funny how you have to talk certain ways to people. For instance i have to talk to Shel a certain way because of what she is to me...not to say i'm hiding things or being dishonest...it's just i have to say what i want to say in certain ways. Mo is kinda the same way...but not for the same reasons. I have to be really careful with her as to not give her the wrong idea. I do see that she seems somewhat interested in me...but that will not happen. But it's totally different with Heather, there's just none of that tension...she's a friend that i'm beginning to trust, and that's the one thing that's gonna help me stave off this sadness for at least a little longer.

Today's song of the day is Testament - Alone In The Dark


When I was but very young
Sorcerers came to claim my mind
Leaving death and hatred to unmask
The master of the game had won
And let his final sin be known
Killing those who stand in his path


Alone in the dark
Where the demons are torturing me
The dark passages of revenge is all that I see


Armies of witches
Are called in from the north
Murders of elders occur
The high priest of evil
Has lowered his iron fist
Thousands of people will die

The slaughter of the innocent
The house is burning
That lights the sky
My nightmare has begun to unfold
The hissing of the cobras tongue
Sound and feel of ripping flesh
Fall two thousand feet from the sky

My terror has controlled my life and
Let my only weakness known
I got to rid this hell from my head
I fight off evil sorcerers
Rid my mind of his torture and
Meet the falling angel in his realm


Faustus prepares the legions of the night
Diviners from the far north arrive
Aimlessly people there huddled in a pack
Wreaking deadly havoc on mankind

I fall in my deepest sleep
To meet the evil asteroth
His title is the grand duke of hell
I fight until the end is near
To rid my mind of hopes and fears
My destination lies in my dreams

SET ME FREE