Troubled Dreams Pt. IV

Time for another dream. This one is about Mo. Simple dream really. I was driving in the old neighborhood and i drove past her house. Flash. I'm sitting on her floor playing my guitar while shes laying on the couch watching TV. She waves me to come closer to her...so i go and sit up against the bottom of the couch. She says no and pats the seat of the couch. I sit down. She puts her hand on my chest and guides me down to lay with her. She takes a bit of my hair in her hand and begins to twirl it between her fingers. Then she looks into my eyes and says 'you take a long time to forgive' and goes to kiss me. i tilt my head so she misses my lips and i brush her hair off of her neck and begin to kiss it. Then i wake up.

my summary : Dreams are a portal into what you dont want to believe or cant see...what i gather from that dream is i still dont love her, but she can still seduce me...thats the reasoning behind the evasion of the kiss. Seduction is NOT what i need right now, and neither is she.

Today's song of the day is Anthrax - Only


Everything is perfect
Everything is sick, that's it
You can't tell me to stop it
You can't tell me not to quit, that's it

Revolve around yourself
It's you and no one else
Hard for me to stay
Swinging moods that change
From calmness to deranged
Unpredictable, unpredictable

You would see if
Only
You hadn't taken things out of my hands
Only
You never wanted to understand

Clasing ways to live here
Compromise for me
I'm at both ends of the spectrum
You're somewhere in the between
Ah, come clean

Crucified, terrified, sacrifice, my whole life
If only...
I can't contain myself
I can't contain myself
I just can't take myself