It's funny how the past comes back to you like a bullet between your eyes. Things that i thought were dead and buried come back to haunt me. Chapters in my life that were closed are reopening and i don't know how i feel about it. My ex came around yesterday and we hung out. It was so weird...it felt like i was back in Vernon again. It felt comfortable. It was her scent that brought me back. I really don't know why the fates have decided to compund all the pressure of a lifetime into a 6 month period for me but it's so debilitating. I'm completely stressed out over everything. I just wish i could get a clear cut answer on what i should do. I don't know who to trust anymore. The whole Sarah thing really fucked up my trust issues. I was really making some headway there with her. All to be betrayed in the end with silence. But that's in the past, someone that could do that to me isn't worth me giving the time of day to. It's time to look to the future. Be it cloudy and uncertain it's a future i intend to be a part of. I will not let her destroy my spirit. I will love again, and it will be reflected back to me. Because deep down i think i'm a good person, no matter what some self-absorbed bitch thinks.
Today's song of the day is Since The Flood - In My Way
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