Why does it seem like every girl i date has some sort of serious mental problem? Be it depression, self-obsession, jealousy, 'cocksluttery' as i like to dub it. It seems like i'm damned to attract the 'wrong' kind of women. Lately i've been getting crazy play from girls. Wish i knew why. But once again they all have 'issues.' What i truly want is a girl that could be considered 'normal.' Someone i don't have to walk on eggshells for. Someone i can tell everything i feel to without fear of judgement. I want someone that relies on me to make them feel better. I want someone thats not afraid to cry in front of me. I want someone whos totally honest with me and doesn't give me a bullshit runaround. Funny how when i describe my 'perfect' girl sex isn't even in the criteria. My perfect girl. I thought i had her at one point. I'm sure she knows who she is. At this point i could never get back together with her...not after seeing the real her. But bar none...what my perfect girl NEEDS to understand...is that she will be my everything, my rock, my world, until my children are born. She needs to understand that she won't be able to compare to the love i will have for my children. My kids will be my reason for living. I will do anything and everything to make them happy and comfortable. I know once i lay eyes on my first child this warped, vengeful, vindictive person that i am will die, and be replaced with a Father. I want to be everything MY father never was. I want to teach my kids from my experiences. I want them to break the mold of this generation and be real people that can stand on their own 2 feet. And i will do everything in my power to lead them down the right path, because i've traveled both paths. One day in the distant future once i have found you, my fiancee/wife/whichever, you'll be reading this, so you know where i've come from...please have the honesty to tell me if i've changed my views on being a parent. If i have slap me back to reality.
Today's song of the day is Pantera - Floods
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